My conscious journey in self-discovery, magick, and spirituality began in earnest about three years ago. Subconsciously, it began when I was a child. I was raised in a very loving, religious home. I grew up believing whole-heartedly in the religion placed before me. And yet…I felt magick every time I went outside. I saw it reflected in nature at every turn.
While attending a Christian university, I began to question my beliefs. I believed in God. What I didn’t believe was all the dogma. For example, one professor claimed that baptism was required in order for a person to be saved and to claim their entrance into heaven. A student then asked what would happen to a person if they died while walking to the river to be baptized. He adamantly responded that the person would go to hell. I knew deep down to my core that he was wrong.
That was over twenty years ago. During the past two decades I have lived my life while slowly pulling away from the church and religion in general. Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m not against religion. I’m for people making their own choices about religion and spirituality. For the last ten years or so I have found myself drawn to study pagan spirituality. The word pagan often has a negative connotation in today’s world. In the past it referred to country folk. Today it means a person holding religious beliefs other than those of the Abrahamic religions. While the world in general is more accepting of paganism today, we still have a long way to go.
Since paganism covers a vast spectrum of belief systems, I have spent considerable time researching, and I have found my path. I am a witch. Yes. You read that correctly. I believe that there is a Divine Energy from which stems all creation. That Divine Energy is in everyone and everything. I believe that the Divine is both male and female as can be seen throughout all of nature. I believe that our soul does not die but continues on after leaving the physical body. I have many beliefs. I am still deconstructing, and it’s beautiful.
Today I leave you with two quotes.
“I cannot conceive of a personal God who would directly influence the actions of individuals, or would directly sit in judgment on creatures of his own creation. I cannot do this in spite of the fact that mechanistic causality has, to a certain extent, been placed in doubt by modern science. My religiosity consists in a humble admiration of the infinitely superior spirit that reveals itself in the little that we, with our weak and transitory understanding, can comprehend of reality. Morality is of the highest importance — but for us, not for God.” – Albert Einstein ‘The Human Side’, 1954
“Your vision will become clear only when you can look into your own heart. Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.” – Carl Jung